Dance Floor Anthem

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for

He calls her up
He’s trippin on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
-Dance Floor Anthem

Collected my Edusave Bursary today. $300! YAY. Haha, got dragged out of bed at 7+ to help out in the flea market which had no sales whatsoever. Damn pathetic. And I slept at like 4+? Sheesh, gonna sleep early today. Horrible for my health. Damn black eyerings alr. T____T

T-shirt

Hey, gotta be strong, gotta be strong but I’m
Really hurting now that you’re gone.
I thought maybe i’d do some shopping,
But i couldn’t get past the door and,
Now I don’t know, now I don’t know if I’m,
Ever really gonna let you go and I,
Couldn’t even leave my apartment.
I’m stripped down, torn up about it.
-T-shirt

I love this song!!! It’s like 3.16am now. Reached home around 2. Heh. Phone was flooded with massive spamming of smses. The concert let me down abit. Last year’s was better. Mass was alright. Yeah. Quite tired now, but still doing Zahada. Level 70 now. XD

Damaged.

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
-Gotta Be Somebody

Baby you should’ve told me, told me from the start
I thought I was your only, till you put me on the shelf and found somebody else
I never thought that you would ever do that, everything we had is gone
Said you loved me, said you’d never leave me, maybe I just heard you wrong
‘Cause I’m damaged, I’m damaged, don’t know what to do,
Baby, I’m damaged so, so damaged because of you
-Damaged

Just got a truckload of songs from my bro. XD Sorting through them and adding them to my iPod. Heh.

Left.

Okay, so my dad left already. Sent him off. He bought a new camera today. For us to use. And he bought my iPod nano chrome yesterday. Like o_O Wasn’t expecting it. HEHE, red. XD Maybe wishful thinking does help eh?

And I seriously forgot what I wanted to write already. Crap.

We’re heading for perfect disaster.
-Hate 2 Love Her

Leavin’

We had it all in front of us
You were the one, I was in love
But you always hurt the one you lost
I couldn’t get enough.

You were everything that’s bad for me.
Make no apologies;
I’m crushed, black and blue
But you know I’d do it all again for you.

You know I’d do it all again for you.
I swear I’d do it all again for you.
-All Again For You

Hmm. Dad’s leaving on Thursday. Which is approaching at a highly alarming rate. Gah. Not a good thing, not a good thing at all. Zzzzz. 2 years leh. AGAIN. I kinda have something against RSAF now. >_> First, ruined  my education and life. Then now, attempt to ruin my education again. WTH. Sheesh. Attempted and failed, but managed to steal my father away from me. RAWR.

Meh, I’m tempted to get the new iPod nano. My current one gonna die soon. The battery’s quite weak already. Hmmm, would be nice if I got it for Christmas eh? Haha, wishful thinking again. Oh well.

Wishful thinking.

My mind is way too imaginative. I keep thinking up scenarios that I wish would happen; I can almost see them happen, can almost feel what’s happening, the emotions, everything, and it never happens the way I want it to be. I tell myself time and again to not have expectations, but I can’t help myself. I just imagine, and think, and I watch myself get crushed again and again. Stupid eh?

Save me from myself, you can.
And it’s you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
‘Cause if anyone can make me fall in love,
You can.
-You Can

Back from Batam

Tell me why
You’re so hard to forget
Don’t remind me
I’m not over it
Tell me why
I can’t seem to face the truth
I’m just a little too not over you
-A Little Too Not Over You

Totally bushed. Batam was fun. Yup. Shall elaborate further maybe tomorrow or something.
Maybe it wasn’t exactly tomorrow. LOL. But anyway.
17th (Monday)
Woke up early, showered, cabbed down to HarbourFront with parents, ate breakfast at Han’s. Ben joined us. Then went to wait with the rest at the cruise centre. Checked in, waited around, got on the ferry. Slept most of the way. Got off, hung around at the ferry terminal at Batam, then went to the hotel. And waited some more for the hotel room. Sheesh, the first day was mostly spent waiting. Got our room (me, Bessie, Tenissa), washed up, was late in coming down. At least we weren’t last. EHEHE. Lunched. Went to the orphanage. Horribly dirty place, seriously. Sandy, muddy in some places. The stairs were thin and steep. Scary to climb down. The stairs to the roof didn’t even have railings. ZOMG. Scouted the place, then the guys went to play soccer with the boys with their ‘new’ donated ball. I just sat around and stoned. Oh yeah, that place is filled with houseflies. Quite scary. Finally left. Have I mentioned that I don’t like kids? Lol, I only went there for the manual labour. Dinner, reflections, and left to own devices. Which pretty much just means bridge. XD Slept quite early that day.
18th (Tuesday)
7am wake up call. Breakfast. 9am left for the hardware store. Bought/collected the stuff for painting. Went to the orphanage and started work. Scraped like mad. At the end of the day, left 5% scraping undone. Went back to the hotel, showered, and went to the shopping mall to get stuff for the orphans and shopping. HEHE. Bought alot of stuff there. 7 shirts, a cigarette case, a wallet, and random stuff. Super happy. DAMN CHEAP YOU KNOW. XD Went back, reflections, left to own devices again. BRIDGE.
19th (Wednesday)
Didn’t get wake up call, for some reason. Everyone didn’t wake up. Haha. Bessie did though; she set her alarm. Haha. So, 9am set off for hardware store again, topped up on paint and a few other things. Went to the orphanage, started work. Scraped, painted, cleaned up. Like, finally done! Took alot of pictures. Haha, none with me though. I need to buy a digi cam soon. Gah. Left, hotel, showered. Went down for dinner. Quite crappy? Lol, and boring. Then had a super long reflection sharing session. Then we had a major party, which we got a complaint about being too noisy. HAHA. Slept at 2am+
20th (Thursday)
Last day. 8am wake up call. 10am set off. Went to some local shop that sells dried stuff. Bought nothing. Went to a Polo Ralph Lauren boutique. So ex, bought nothing. Then went to the MegaMall. Finally, some place to shop. Bought more clothes, a watch, a cap for my dad, a magnet for my mum, and some random stuff. Ate, and chiong-ed down, ’cause we were late, and in the end, we reached the ferry terminal in less than 5min. -_- Quite dumb. Hang around. Checked in, got on the ferry and slept all the way back. Reached Singapore, handed in reflection booklet and left. Yup. Took 166 back home. 1 hour + journey. X___X

Got multiple surprises today. All within an hour. One call. All it took was one call to break through my defenses. I’m pathetic.

I’m going to sleep soon.

Thoughts

‘Cause when a heart breaks, no it don’t breakeven

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re okay
-Breakeven

Seemingly random thoughts, but they aren’t actually.

1. 2012
   It’s supposedly the “End of the world“, but honestly I wouldn’t believe it. People have predicted that 2000 would be the end of the world, and 2000 came and went without incident. Also, the Bible has already said that no one would know when the 2nd coming of Jesus would be. So, I don’t know how these people can actually PREDICT the coming when they have done it by pure speculation. They could claim that Jesus came to them in a dream and told them the date (year in this case), but you wouldn’t know if it’s the truth or what right? Seriously, the 2nd coming of Jesus would be on a DAY, yet they give a YEAR. So which exact date in 2012 would the end of the year be? Once again, another loophole. Don’t know why people actually believe this.
2. Materialism
   People are materialistic by nature. Sure, some people are never satisfied with what they have, and that’s called being greedy. However, if you need something, and you buy it, it’s a neccessity, not a desire. Then again, people have different classifications of need. So I can’t say much.
3. Singapore Kiasu Syndrome
   Blah, Singapore’s education system breeds student/children who grow up competitive in nature, hence wanting to be the top in everything. Seriously, it might be good to a certain extent, but when people start using underhand methods to get to the top, it’s no longer good. But that is based on a person’s character. It isn’t necessarily true that everyone turns out bad under Singapore’s education system, but there is a possibility, especially when they don’t have a morally good character due to bad family background, or whatsoever.

Anyway, enough of that.

I had a dream today (this morning). About you. Weird. Been trying to keep you in the back of my mind, and succeeding for the most part, except recently. Bought something from Malacca, but I don’t know if I should give it. Dilemma. I remembered you buying something there for me, if my memory serves me right.

Maybe I should just cease thinking, stop overworking my brain. Just relax, train, enjoy. Maybe, huh.

New blog, new beginning?

There was a time, that we’d stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose, but so much to gain
Are you hearing me? Cause I don’t wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss.

Maybe not. Just felt like changing the layout of my blog. New name, new meaning? I guess.

Plus que la vie – More than life. It’s french. Got the inspiration from Breaking Dawn. Bella’s present to Renesmee. Sweet, isn’t it? The actual wording was more than my own life which translates to plus que ma propre vie, but that was way too long. So I kinda rephrased it. Man, I seriously have to reformat my com soon. Dumb trojan is screwing it up. I’m waiting for my dad to get back from Paris for him to do it. So yeah, soon, this Sunday morning. Can’t wait.

Tomorrow, going out with Junyi. Klunch. Dress up for fun. XD I feel like shopping. Don’t know for what, just shopping and spending money. I wanna go Mu-ee and get some stuff from there. They got cute things there. Was there today, Vivo. Dumb friendly match that got cancelled in the end and made me travel an hour there for nothing. Grr. Oh well. Nothing much is happening. Shall update soon then.